This post was originally titled "The Weary Mama Post". I'm so tired. And most of it isn't physical, it's mental weariness. I'm tired of hearing Myka scream...I love her so much, but she's going through a phase where she ALWAYS wants something, and she cries and tries to tell me and daniel, and we try to guess what she wants, and when we get it wrong, she freaks out and screams louder. It's a tough phase, I won't lie.
I'm tired of the older ones asking for things all the time and trying to keep up with their rate of switching activities
And I'm tired of trying to keep my house decent looking in the midst of all of it. I know I could just leave the mess, and "it will still be there tomorrow", but THAT is the problem. I don't want it there tomorrow...having big messes everywhere stresses me out more than trying to keep it neat (I think). And I'm not even a neat freak, I just hate clutter! LOL
And the thing is, none of it is their fault! They are the four amazing children that God has blessed us with, and they are just growing up...learning as they go, much like me.
But, at the end of the day, after the kids are in bed and I can finally slow down a little bit, this song usually enters my head. It's my favorite song in the whole world. Amazingly powerful. It makes me cry almost every time, because it reminds me of just how awesome our God is. As humans, we do a zillion times more things that could try His patience than what my kids do to me. Yet he still has patience with us. He never gives up on us. I see examples in my friends' lives all the time....mostly on Facebook :) I'll see statuses that are heart wrenching, sad, or sound like my friends just want to give up..yet there is always hope. God always comes through, even though it may not be our exact timing or in the way we think He should. We are here. We are loved by Him more than we can ever know. He loves us.
Thinking about that, even just for a minute, always gives me the strength to get through another day of the things that make me tired.
This song is amazing. Listen, feel the love, and allow God to give you the strength to enjoy life!
Sorry you're having such a difficult time with Myka right now. I remember having a similar period with Jayce before he started talking and it's so hard on everyone when you want to help, but can't. Praying for you all. And I love that song.
ReplyDeleteGod will never give/allow us more than we can handle, we've only to recognize.
ReplyDeleteWish you and yours well.
jade, i always find you so encouraging!!
ReplyDeleteand i know exactly where you're coming from. a special blessing from having a friend who has just as many children, the same ages!!!
i thank god for you! and i will continue to pray for you and daniel (and the girls!)
have you heard,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=002Q4gBUsy8
this is my song that helps keep me in check every day... it is SO hard having this many kids and these ages... but children are a blessing from god, and i think, in our circumstances at least, that it's through him that we can recognize our children as blessings! :)
thanks for being my friend!
Alison, I love that song too! I so agree with you...they are blessings, and I don't want to just "get through" with them, I want to enjoy them :D Thanks for being MY friend! And..have you blogged lately? I've been checking it for updates, but hadn't seen any in awhile!
ReplyDeleteThat's one of my all time favorite songs too! I had never heard/seen that version before. It touches me every time.
ReplyDeleteBy the way, I've been trying to get control of my house lately too, and I've been using the Fly Lady. I think it's flylady.net. If you haven't checked it out, it's worth looking into! At the very least, it's inspiring, but I've also learned some good tricks.